November Depression
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Hello. It's been awhile. Hope you're doing OK in these dark times.
November has crept up on us again, and so has November depression. The type of Winter depression that I'm familiar with. It seems to be commen for people at this time. Less daylight, colder temperature, more indoor time, being sick, etc. There can be various factors into why we get hit with it. I think an accurate description of it is being in a rough little nut. It's exhausting and it sucks, but you're not there for very long. I have my reasons for having it, so I thought that I would discuss about it and the ways that I deal with it in this little piece.
I've dealt with this November depression on and off for about six years now. I'm not going into too much personal details, other then that I know the root cause of it, and I'm still not quite emotionally equipped to deal with it. I'm a introverted person, and asking for help or advice requires some broken barriers. It's not easy. But in times like these, you try to fight it and keep yourself active in different ways, which is what I'm doing.
One thing that I've picked up from last year is writing lyrics and poems. When you bottle up your emotions inside, you're bound to address them somehow, before the pressure gets too much. Having them written down helps a lot. I am actually surprised by what has been written, so far. When I was in a boarding school, I used to play music a lot, but I was not a songwriter. By that I mean, that I really didn't know how to structure riffs and such to create a song. And lyrics was the last thing that I would think about. Now, however, ideas for lyrics come together much easier for me. I guess that writing about your own emotions is more natural than writing about a non-personal topic. I have plans to turn these lyrics into songs, which will be interesting to add music into words instead of the other way around.
Other than that, I'm doing some exercise in my spare time. I'm fortunate enough to live near a forest, so semi-daily walks have become a routine. I've also picked up on Wii Fit, since late September. That has more to do with listening to various podcasts and being inspired to live a more healthier life. Also, I can save money by doing exercise at home than, say, doing it at a fitness center. Though I have slagged off for most of this month, that has more to do with foot problems (that will hopefully be detailed in a future blog), but I'm getting back on track. Everything takes time.
All in all, I just trying to pull through like most people. Fits of depression sucks, but it's better to fight it than let it blackpill you to death. Life is too precious for that to happen. I may feel a bit down now, but tomorrow may be different. On that note, have a good day.
"As sure as it is true once we all shall die: true it is not all men lives
A king shall fall: a child be born: the Gods will take and Gods will give
Before your time has come: do climb your mountainside on a morning fair
And smell the fragrance carried by the wind: let it blow freely through your hair
Damned he who sits still and curse woe the dark but will do not a thing
To light the torch: to shed the light: for him the dark is all within
Slowly across the sky the golden disc of life it tumbles on
The wheel of life and light: rebirth: the seasons: behold the wheel of sun"
- Thomas B. Forsberg (Quorthon)
Mon, 27 Nov 2023 15:00:00 +0100
Site Update: MOBILITY
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Hello people. Got another site update for ya.
If you recall from my last update, I mentioned that while the site menu and language button was good additions to the site, as a result of me still being quite a newb in CSS, the enhancements didn't translate well to smaller portrait screens (i.e. smartphones) and therefore looked pretty cluttered. Well, I've since learned a bit more about CSS (thanks to my boy Michael, and the ever-so effective tutorials on W3Schools.com), and the knowledge has now manifested itself on mobile.
It looks quite nice, doesn't it?
For the mobile users, I've moved the site menu to the buttom of every page for ease of access. I could maybe have retained it as a sidebar overlap, but I don't know how, and since I want this website to be light, minimalist and fast, I can imagine it putting a damper on the performance. Besides, this is fast enough.
Another thing is the sticky language botton, which is now fixated to the top of the screen even if you keep scrolling down. The intent is to have it simillar to the desktop version, although the bottom being sticky may be removed in the future for redundancy reasons. I don't know, but we'll see to that time.
That's about all. See you and do your best.
Wed, 09 Aug 2023 16:08:48 +0200
Don't Let The Little Annoying Things Get To You
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I would like you all to keep this phrasing as a reminder, as the opposite can quickly lead you into a slippery slope of bitterness and negativity on you and the people around you, unless you remember to get a hold of yourself.
To set the stage, I had an irritating situation at work, yesterday. The work that I thought was done by one of my co-workers, the day before, came back for me to deal with. I was not pleased with that. It didn't help that this particular co-worker's shift only started some hours later, so I was left with this mess without any answer to why it wasn't done the day before. So I worked on while wondering what the possible answer to this question was. Minute-by-minute, package-by-package, these possible answers turned into assumptions, doubt and ignorence about this individual. This in turn gave way to some bitter mood, overall very negative intuitions that I began to feel about other people in my life; and thoughts about how "they would go against/not care me in the future if I was ever down".
These depressing thoughts stuck with me for a few hours, until I realized that all of this started, because of a relatively small thing that really only had a slight impact on the workday, and that I should stop this bitterness, so it wouldn't effect my other co-workers. Took a little while, but I finally found some peace of mind and regained some positive spirit for the rest of the day.
Now, why am I writing all of this to you? Simply put, I don't want you to become bitter. Not that you should force happiness upon yourself, but it's too exhausting being bitter about meaningless stuff. The world is full of shit to make life dull, and it's too easy to fall into the trap of an unpleasant mindset than staying in a positive one. Remember that there's more joy to life than animosity, but you have to work on finding and keeping that virtue and meaning of life.
Also, I think that this, too, needs to be stated:
Take a break with the self-depricating humor
Or any form of demeaning remarks on yourself or on people you love. I'm gonna echo the sentiments of my buddy Denshi on this topic. Even if it's in good spirits, the more that this type of humor gets used daily, it can then lead people into being more pessimistic, less secure about their skills and believing that they will never be good enough. Which again, I don't think that you need to add more unneccesary negativity into your daily life.
And always remember: If you can see yourself in the mirror and find any flaw to fix or room for improvement, don't ask when. Start working on being a better version of yourself. It will be brighter in the long run.
Godspeed.
Sat, 05 Aug 2023 15:29:00 +0200
First update of 2023
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Hello again...........
...no, I don't plan on making this a annual tradition. I'm just lazy, ok?
Lots of things going on, just not on this site. However, you may have noticed somewhat of
a redesign to this site that I've slowly been working on this since last blog post. I've now
implemented a side menu, so navigating the site now is easier than ever. That took some time
to implement, as I had to manually add it to every page here, Danish and English (also used
some time to fix any other tags and such).
Danish? Well, almost. This is also something that I wanted to do since the beginning of
this site. This also took time, as I had to essentially split the site in two directories
and then re-edit all the pages again and redirect links, images and so forth. Trust me, when
I say that it takes a lot of time.
After all that, then it's the matter of actually
translating the pages. This is very much a learning expierience. There are many ways to go
about it, but I seem to translate quite literal, while making some workarounds with certain
phrases. As of now, not every article has a Danish version, but new articles will be released
simultaneously in both Danish and English (with maybe some few exemptions). There's also new
RSS feeds for each language, so if you're subcribed to the old one, make it go to bed and
resubscribe again.
Best edition to the site is the Language Select. This was my first time making a GIF in GIMP, and I had a whole stupid grin after making it. Pointy hands got that rythem.
Last thing to note: Having the Site Menu and language switch is an improvement, but it
doesn't seem to work well on mobile, so apologies for the inconvenience.
thats it bye bye
Fri, 21 Jul 2023 17:48:47 +0200
